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Not with a Bang, but a Whimper

So I'm starting this year with a whimper rather than a bang. I'm not sure I want to rehash the terrible of 2018. but I've been away for what feels like ever. Updating my journal or writing, unfortunately, just felt like one more stressor to add to my already frayed self. 2019 didn't start much better than 2018 ended so I'm just going to dive in and ignore the emotional baggage for the time being. 

I purchased a new lappy 3000 that looks shiny and new, but I need to download Office so I can attempt to start writing again. Signed up for [community profile] getyourwordsout and as of my first official check in I've written zero days (but I have hopes for this month and I will continue to try to be hopeful). I just need to focus and write for at least 120 days this year. I'm not concerning myself with a word count, but I do know which stories I intend to focus on. 

I made the mistake of starting "The Joy of Tiding Up" which is making my itch to clean out pretty much everything (but I need to finish the book first) and the smarter choice of "De-Stressing Your Brain" which I'm not deep enough into to hazard if it's working or not. I turned to nesting last year to help calm my brain and distract me from all the chaos going on in there. It helped to a degree so I'm continuing on with it into 2019.  

I'm also going to attempt a handwritten journal. If it turns out as cute as the tutorials on YouTube I'll share some pictures of it on here. That's all for now and if any of you are still around I hope this note finds you well and happy. 

There needs to be more happy in the world. *hugs*

  • Current Mood: calm calm
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I’d hoped to get started back up on [community profile] tamingthemuse  this week. The community had switched to Dreamwidth after the whole LJ user agreement fiasco, but it hasn’t been updated since the middle of August. I was looking forward to the structure of the community even if the words sometimes confounded me.

So I’m going to attempt to challenge myself. I located a random word generator (via a handy-dandy Google search) and it provided me with these 12 words. Over the next 12 weeks I’m going to tackle one a week and write story/scene/chapter inspired by these words. I’m going to go in the order the words were presented to me (no skipping).

Please feel free to join in my madness.

1. copper
2. explain
3. ill-fated
4. truck
5. neat
6. unite
7. branch
8. educated
9. tenuous
10. hum
11. decisive
12. notice
btvs: buffy & dawn

fic:don’t put the blame on her | btvs, walking dead | gen

Title: don’t put the blame on her
Rating: FR13
Prompt: copper
Disclaimer: BtVS and all related characters are copyright of Joss Whedon and ME. The Walking Dead and all related characters are copyright of Robert Kirkman, Image Comics and AMC. No infringement intended.

Summary: Buffy’s outing with Aiden goes about as well as expected—which isn’t at all. Part of the 'nature always wins' series.

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btvs: buffy & dawn

fic:maybe she's foolish | btvs, the walking dead | gen

Title: maybe she’s foolish
Author: avamclean
Rating: FR13
Crossover: BtVS, The Walking Dead
Disclaimer: BtVS and all related characters are copyright of Joss Whedon and ME. The Walking Dead and all related characters are copyright of Robert Kirkman, Image Comics and AMC. No infringement intended.

Summary: Dawn still has some faith in humanity. Part of the ‘nature always wins’ ‘verse.

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I wasn’t feeling the love because I’d forgotten to actually join the het_banghelp community. I’m a little slow on the uptake sometimes, but apparently they do twice weekly check-ins. Hopefully, that will help me keep on track.

Now to just get myself writing tonight… *stares blankly at the cursor*

Damn thing is mocking me.
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that went quickly

My niece is graduating high school tomorrow. I'm proud of her because I know she hates school and this graduation was questionable last year, but she was also just to my knee and in diapers a few days ago. I swear.

I know she'd be incredibly embarrassed by her aunt remembering when I used to call her Stinkerbelle (because my god did her diapers stink) and that my favorite photo of her is of her "reading" the newspaper on the toilet when she was being potty trained way back when.

Now she has a boyfriend. Now she's graduating high school. Now she's considered an adult in the eyes of the law. I'm horrified by these concepts. Not because it makes me feel old (it does a little), but there's this big wide world out there and she's got to learn how to manage it. She barely managed high school.

Can't I wrap her up in bubblewrap and put her in a closet until she's 25 and ready to deal with all the shite that comes with living? (I know that would make it worse, but I'm still tempted.)

Do they sell cards that say "Welcome to adulthood. Yeah. We knew it sucks. But welcome anyway."
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*blows dust off*

Let’s just ignore that my last update was in August, shall we? ‘Cause that’s sad and I have fantastic, fabulous news that also sort of explains my absence.


In October D was diagnosed with stage 4 small cell throat cancer. He had 9 weeks of radiation and chemo and kicked its ass right into remission! (The doctors and nurses had something to do with it, but it was mostly D.)

I’d written a couple of posts tell you all (or anyone that’s still around) what was happening, but I deleted them rather than posting. I’m not good with the emotional shit when it comes to my own life. One day I’ll get better at it… or maybe not. *shrugs*

But all that is for another time because my brother is cancer FREE!
marvel: steve rogers

fic:normal(ish) life | btvs, captain american | gen

Title: normal(ish) life
Series Title: we ain’t ever getting older
Rating: FR13
Disclaimer: Captain America and all related themes are copyright of Marvel Entertainment and Stan Lee. Buffy the Vampire Slayer and all related themes are copyright of Joss Whedon and ME. No infringement intended.
Synopsis: Buffy comes down with a not so slight case of the transtemporal.
Note: Like I needed another series… sigh

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2016 August Fic-A-Day Challenge

Just a friendly reminder that the twistedshorts August Fic-A-Day Challenge will be upon us soon. The title of the challenge is pretty self-explanatory, but the basic concept is to write 31 short stories(between 300 and 3000 words) and post them each day in the month of August.

New participants and readers are welcome!